Tears in my eyes burns...

If you all know Bob Marley, you may know that those are lyrics from his song "Waiting in Vain." However, its not because of that song I am depressed, and for once, I am not waiting in vain for anything. Yesterday was the first day I was involved in the process of terminating an employee. And while this said employee and I were not close, it is still sad. This employee was a parent with personal family issues and the thought of being jobless adds to a long list of troubles. While there is no perfect time to let someone go, it just seems sad that their new year just started and BAM. Oh well...life goes and I'm sure things will work out OK for them. That person is highly intelligent and brilliant. Maybe the Society just wasn't a good fit for them. I guess this was practice for what's to come in the future.

Toodles!

Well, its been quite a ride...

So, 2010 is officially over and I am down one gall bladder and up three hospital stays (including most recent visit for my son's paritonsular abscess that kept is in the hospital through New Years Eve). Wow. Needless to say, 2010 was a year of "finding" myself. I finally accepted that my marriage did not work, and I closed that chapter of my life. I also figured out that if I want change to happen in my life, I need to get up off my a$$ and DO SOMETHING about it. Simple, huh? Well, in theory it is. But, I suffer from a little problem called low self-esteem. Hold the horns, I love myself, dearly. But, I sometimes feel that because my life didn't turn out as planned, that something is the matter with me, and that something is not good. I haven't quite figured out what the matter is though...

Sooooo, 2011 will be about me finding out exactly WHAT the hell is wrong with me and I'll try to fix it. I already have an uber fabulous girls trip to Indonesia planned for July, and my career seems to be going on the right path. Now, if I can get my income up to par and my health in a consistent steady state, then we can talk.

I hope you all had a wonderful new year!

By the way, to show just how serious I am about improving my self esteem...I purchased a book yesterday called, "The Women's Book of Confidence" ~Meditations for Strength and Inspiration~ By Sue Patton Thoele. Uh Huh.

Toodles!